Yeah, I know I changed my blog's security at first. I cringed at the fact that some stupid hater will come harassing me. But since some of my friends didn't liked it when I sort of 'closed' my blog, so I gave in and opened it to the public.
From here, I'm going to do a lot of random ramblings. If you think you can cope with it, you can continue. If not, sayonara!
Oh, I wished that I was living in another country that had four seasons and of course, longer holidays. At times, I would love to picture myself in a white bedroom at Melbourne, Australia where you could feel the wind brushing your hair through your balcony. Or probably in the streets of Japan where lights would replace stars in the skies and have a lovely Starbucks while being on-the-go.
Or probably be at Korea with a plastic bag filled with Korean Drama CDs like Coffee Prince, Boys over Flowers, A Love to Kill etc. Sorry but I can't stop being such a fan girl! Hehe... Besides that, I wished that I have back my laptop so that during the next school holiday I'll be playing lots of games! I really want to play dota. My sister's has played it before. I used to watch her and my brother play WC before but since I was little kid, I couldn't understand a thing!
But seriously, I wanna level up my level 42 Cleric and become a level 70 priest or get a freakking fourth job! Yea, yea... A bit of a MapleStory gamer here. I really wanna play dota or any other online games I could find. AuditionSEA is TOO big. It's more than 1 GB. -______-" Not 02Jam, it's limited for Philippines gamers only. I wonder if there are any good games.
Sims 2 is so damn boring. I played the college, night club (I think that was the name) and the regular edition. Honestly, it was boring. Besides games, I also enjoy art. Boy, I would love to get my hands on some airbrushes! AH! They're wonderful and I seriously want to use them!! I've been craving to own some Copic Markers, more white gel pens and paint! XD
I want to take painting lessons to know how to paint a proper canvas. Or get myself a tablet and use Adobe Photoshop like crazy! Oh, Adobe Photoshop CS2 is my favorite. Not sure about CS3 though. Hmm... I want copic markers, damn it! I wonder if they sell those in Malaysia. Dang! I want Prisma color pencils as well. Stabilo doesn't have the good colours I need. Faber-Castell is my favorite brand. I seriously want a set of Prisma colour pencils!
I want to watch the latest of Fast and the Furious. I wanna own the DVD of Golden Compass after I've watched it. I wish they had the Extended Versions of LoTR but I don't think they sell those anymore. I wonder if they are going to turn one of Trudi Canavan's books into a movie. Ah! I'll be surely to buy the first ticket. Hehehe... I only the first chapter of Inkheart but too bad I can't buy any books for now. Sigh..
So here my ramblings ends. I hope I did not bore you with all my interests or obsessions. But I just feel so hyper tonight. XD!
Welcome to my café. Coffee, anyone?
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Sort of Tagged...?
I found this somewhere in the net. But I accidentally closed the page and somehow I can't enter into my History list to find the page. Oh, well. Since I *sorta* got tagged by that person, I have to do it.
Rules :
1. Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back!!
1. I love to poke people who are ticklish or kuat-melatah. 8D
2. I would usually slouch whenever I walk around.
3. If someone gets on my nerves/bad side (during first impressions), I can be bitchy or arrogant towards them.
4. I'm a very forgetful person.
5. Sometimes I tend to read books while hanging upside down on my bed.
6. I love to pinch my friends' cheeks. A lot.
7. I tend to notice the little things on people. (e.g: dirt in their hair or paper on their faces) - it is weird in some way -
8. I love sleeping with my iPod on and playing. (No wonder my earphones cepat rosak! =_=)
9. I loved eating bread with cheese and strawberry/blueberry jam. Hehe... yummy~
10. I sorta like to stare at guys who have nice eyebrows. (Sorry, Shahidan... You're not included..) =____="
11. Sometimes 8 hours of sleep isn't enough for me.
12. I'm good in english but I suck in my native language! -___- AHH!
13. I cry a lot. Especially at night. (Yeah, a lot of my friends don't believe it)
14. I think it's very attractive if guys has long, straight and slender fingers.
15. Technology has taken over my social life...
Tagged
1 - 10. NOBODY!
Rules :
1. Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back!!
1. I love to poke people who are ticklish or kuat-melatah. 8D
2. I would usually slouch whenever I walk around.
3. If someone gets on my nerves/bad side (during first impressions), I can be bitchy or arrogant towards them.
4. I'm a very forgetful person.
5. Sometimes I tend to read books while hanging upside down on my bed.
6. I love to pinch my friends' cheeks. A lot.
7. I tend to notice the little things on people. (e.g: dirt in their hair or paper on their faces) - it is weird in some way -
8. I love sleeping with my iPod on and playing. (No wonder my earphones cepat rosak! =_=)
9. I loved eating bread with cheese and strawberry/blueberry jam. Hehe... yummy~
10. I sorta like to stare at guys who have nice eyebrows. (Sorry, Shahidan... You're not included..) =____="
11. Sometimes 8 hours of sleep isn't enough for me.
12. I'm good in english but I suck in my native language! -___- AHH!
13. I cry a lot. Especially at night. (Yeah, a lot of my friends don't believe it)
14. I think it's very attractive if guys has long, straight and slender fingers.
15. Technology has taken over my social life...
Tagged
1 - 10. NOBODY!
Pictures everywhere...
"Lazy Glow"
Based on: the lamp in my living room.
Supposed-to-be story: -None-
"Gone"
Based on: the sofa in my living room
Supposed-to-be story: In the eyes of a person wondering why a certain person isn't there. Hence, the sofa and the light. Lol.
"Let Them Bloom"
Based on: The fake flowers next to my lamp
Supposed-to-be story: -None-
"Afternoon nap"
Based on: My cat! (To Sharifah, he's sexy. To me, he's awesome!)
Supposed-to-be story: Just another typical nap for cats. ;)
"The Night Isn't Clear"
Based on: The view of Kampung Sungai Kayu Ara at the back of my house. (This is what happens when you have shaky hands)
Supposed-to-be story: Probably someone drunk in the middle of the night or someone who doesn't know what to expect tomorrow.
I really want those type of good photography cameras! I'm jealous that Kim Yoong has one XP. My one is sucky and always runs out of batteries! Ah, annoying! I hate to change the batteries because it's non-rechargable. An IXUS camera could be cool. Overall, I can't wait to see my cousin, Ilah!
-Behind these Earphones-
Yz
W.O.W
I've read from Rhonwyn's blog about Susan Boyle. I have to admit I was shocked as well. She seems quite ugly and she's 47 years old. But when she opened her mouth to sing, I was horrified that she'll sound like a toad. But no, she was an angel.
Susan Boyle's Performance!
She seems to be a complete joke at first. Even some of the audiences were laughing and cringing at her. I honestly thought she looked like a grandmother. But when I heard her sing, my expression was just like Simon's.
Like they say, "do not judge a book by it's cover". And that is true. She had a big voice and as soon as she sang, you could see that almost everyone stood up on their feet to clap. Bravo!
-Tata!-
Yz
Susan Boyle's Performance!
She seems to be a complete joke at first. Even some of the audiences were laughing and cringing at her. I honestly thought she looked like a grandmother. But when I heard her sing, my expression was just like Simon's.
Like they say, "do not judge a book by it's cover". And that is true. She had a big voice and as soon as she sang, you could see that almost everyone stood up on their feet to clap. Bravo!
-Tata!-
Yz
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Don't You Get Tired?
Honestly, don't you get tired of these sufferings?
Don't you get tired to be called stupid for doing something you don't know?
Don't you get tired of hearing someone say that you'll be a thief for lying to something that you don't dare to answer?
Don't you get tired of hearing people say that you're useless?
Don't you get tired to wait for someone to smile at you when you know that's impossible to happen?
Don't you get tired of being treated like you're invisible?
Don't you get tired of being knocked on the head because they say you did something wrong?
Don't you get tired that you're always the one to blame no matter what happened?
Don't you get tired wishing that the person will love you unconditionally but they never will?
Don't you get tired of hearing people of how much they want to change or perfect you?
Don't you get tired crying every night for almost every bad word they called you?
Don't you get tired that you cry your heart out but nobody cares?
Don't you get tired of hiding in your room so that no one will hear or see you?
Don't you get tired for curling into a ball on your bed to pull yourself together?
Don't you get tired of the fact that you have to hide this secret?
Don't you get tired of having to deal with it on a daily basis?
Honestly, I do.
-Out-
Yz
Don't you get tired to be called stupid for doing something you don't know?
Don't you get tired of hearing someone say that you'll be a thief for lying to something that you don't dare to answer?
Don't you get tired of hearing people say that you're useless?
Don't you get tired to wait for someone to smile at you when you know that's impossible to happen?
Don't you get tired of being treated like you're invisible?
Don't you get tired of being knocked on the head because they say you did something wrong?
Don't you get tired that you're always the one to blame no matter what happened?
Don't you get tired wishing that the person will love you unconditionally but they never will?
Don't you get tired of hearing people of how much they want to change or perfect you?
Don't you get tired crying every night for almost every bad word they called you?
Don't you get tired that you cry your heart out but nobody cares?
Don't you get tired of hiding in your room so that no one will hear or see you?
Don't you get tired for curling into a ball on your bed to pull yourself together?
Don't you get tired of the fact that you have to hide this secret?
Don't you get tired of having to deal with it on a daily basis?
Honestly, I do.
-Out-
Yz
Friday, April 17, 2009
Locked in Love
Was just visiting around my former teacher's blog (Miss Sahaniza's) and read one of her previous posts. Shoot, I'm tagged. *sweat*
Here!
1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song's name down no matter how silly it sounds!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.
If someone says "Is this okay?" You say?
Love Like This - Natasha Bedingfield feat. Sean Kingston. (o_o)
What do you like in a guy/girl?
Kiss Kiss - Holly Valance (what the *toot*?!)
How do you feel today?
Say Goodbye - Chris Brown (oh, hell! Please don't remind me about the past!)
What is your life's purpose?
I Kissed A Girl - Katy Perry (wth!! WTF!!! LMAO!! *can't... stop... laughing!!!*)
What is your motto?
Upgrade You - Beyonce feat. Jay Z. (Lol... At least that made sense, I think)
What do your friends think of you?
In This Life - Delta Goodrem (o.o... That was weird. But Delta Goodrem is awesome!)
What do you think of your parents?
Can I have this dance? - High School 3 (dot, dot, dot.... Next, please)
What do you think about very often?
You and me - Lifehouse =') (Aww....)
What is 2+2?
There's Nothing - Sean Kingston feat. The DEY & Juelz Santana (Omg.. I'm so stupid!!)
What do you think of your best friend?
Gotta Find You - Jonas Brothers. (o____o uh, that's absolutely weird!)
What do you think of the person you like?
Atlantis Princess - BoA Kwon (o__o A guy... as an Atlantis Princess. Gross!)
What is your life story?
Tell Me - P. Diddy feat. Christina Aguilera (huh???)
What do you want to be when you grow up?
Chain - BACK-ON! (A hubba-what??)
What do you think when you see the person you like?
Confessions of A Broken Heart - Lindsay Lohan (*sighs* Quite true. If only he knows how I feel..)
What do your parents think of you?
Unfaithful - Rihanna (what the heck... *wonders*)
What will you dance to at your wedding?
She's No You - Jesse McCartney (lol... Still, very sweet. XD)
What will they play at your funeral?
Inori (Prayer).. You Raise Me Up - Lena Park... (*wishes that would happen* X(...)
What is your hobby/interest?
Do It Well - Jennifer Lopez (*lmao*)
What do you think of your friends?
Wait For You - Elliot Yamin (More 'aww's)
What's the worst thing that could happen?
Because I'm Stupid - SS501 (That's crazy, man!! LOL!)
How will you die?
If I were a boy - Beyonce (LMAO! ROFL! LOL!)
What is the one thing you regret?
A Little Too Not Over You - David Archuleta (Oh, great. *feeling blue already*)
What makes you laugh?
Baby Boy - Beyonce feat. Sean Paul (LOL!! ROFL! Oh, my gosh... That is so... stupid!)
What makes you cry?
So What - Pink (lol...lol... true!)
Will you ever get married?
Let Me Go - 3 Doors Down (wow.. that's deep, man)
What scares you the most?
A. Mi. Go - SHINee. (Huh? Why should I be scared of "a beauty that could bring sufferings? Well, I think I should be scared. Wth)
Does anyone like you?
Never Again - Kelly Clarkson. (That's so cruel!! *sobs*)
If you could go back in time, what would you change?
Broken - Seether feat. Amy Lee. (o_o *turns away*)
What hurts right now?
Because you live - Jesse McCartney. (True, true... Very true.)
What will you post this as?
Locked in Love - James Baum (*sighs* *sob* *sighs*)
Here!
1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song's name down no matter how silly it sounds!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.
If someone says "Is this okay?" You say?
Love Like This - Natasha Bedingfield feat. Sean Kingston. (o_o)
What do you like in a guy/girl?
Kiss Kiss - Holly Valance (what the *toot*?!)
How do you feel today?
Say Goodbye - Chris Brown (oh, hell! Please don't remind me about the past!)
What is your life's purpose?
I Kissed A Girl - Katy Perry (wth!! WTF!!! LMAO!! *can't... stop... laughing!!!*)
What is your motto?
Upgrade You - Beyonce feat. Jay Z. (Lol... At least that made sense, I think)
What do your friends think of you?
In This Life - Delta Goodrem (o.o... That was weird. But Delta Goodrem is awesome!)
What do you think of your parents?
Can I have this dance? - High School 3 (dot, dot, dot.... Next, please)
What do you think about very often?
You and me - Lifehouse =') (Aww....)
What is 2+2?
There's Nothing - Sean Kingston feat. The DEY & Juelz Santana (Omg.. I'm so stupid!!)
What do you think of your best friend?
Gotta Find You - Jonas Brothers. (o____o uh, that's absolutely weird!)
What do you think of the person you like?
Atlantis Princess - BoA Kwon (o__o A guy... as an Atlantis Princess. Gross!)
What is your life story?
Tell Me - P. Diddy feat. Christina Aguilera (huh???)
What do you want to be when you grow up?
Chain - BACK-ON! (A hubba-what??)
What do you think when you see the person you like?
Confessions of A Broken Heart - Lindsay Lohan (*sighs* Quite true. If only he knows how I feel..)
What do your parents think of you?
Unfaithful - Rihanna (what the heck... *wonders*)
What will you dance to at your wedding?
She's No You - Jesse McCartney (lol... Still, very sweet. XD)
What will they play at your funeral?
Inori (Prayer).. You Raise Me Up - Lena Park... (*wishes that would happen* X(...)
What is your hobby/interest?
Do It Well - Jennifer Lopez (*lmao*)
What do you think of your friends?
Wait For You - Elliot Yamin (More 'aww's)
What's the worst thing that could happen?
Because I'm Stupid - SS501 (That's crazy, man!! LOL!)
How will you die?
If I were a boy - Beyonce (LMAO! ROFL! LOL!)
What is the one thing you regret?
A Little Too Not Over You - David Archuleta (Oh, great. *feeling blue already*)
What makes you laugh?
Baby Boy - Beyonce feat. Sean Paul (LOL!! ROFL! Oh, my gosh... That is so... stupid!)
What makes you cry?
So What - Pink (lol...lol... true!)
Will you ever get married?
Let Me Go - 3 Doors Down (wow.. that's deep, man)
What scares you the most?
A. Mi. Go - SHINee. (Huh? Why should I be scared of "a beauty that could bring sufferings? Well, I think I should be scared. Wth)
Does anyone like you?
Never Again - Kelly Clarkson. (That's so cruel!! *sobs*)
If you could go back in time, what would you change?
Broken - Seether feat. Amy Lee. (o_o *turns away*)
What hurts right now?
Because you live - Jesse McCartney. (True, true... Very true.)
What will you post this as?
Locked in Love - James Baum (*sighs* *sob* *sighs*)
Stress
This week is one of the worst I had in my entire sophomore year.
I'm ready to burst out my fire already. I can't concertrate during Geography class even though I desperately want to so that I won't have to be constantly feeling sad plus anger when my dad babbles to me about how I should stop 'drawing', rubbing it in my face by saying that art is useless. (Swears *censored*) I can't believe ML has changed for the worst and now I officialy dislike and will no longer act as if she's ever been my friend.
Sad to know that a 'friend' I know is moving to Vietnam and I probably not gonna see him anytime soon. Guilty because I used to like his best friend, whom is giving me a very hard time. Confused of why I liked 'him' even though I know I'm not his type and knowing he'll graduate next year. Angry that my dad keeps messing up my brain by saying I should stop drawing for the sake of my studies, which I know I'll break apart!
Crazy because I'm constantly thinking too much that I know my brain is going to explode. Desperately wishing that I could just pass out and get sick for a few days. Tired because of all this shitty stress wrecking my brain cells and almost 'dead' because...
This sucks.
-Out-
Yz
I'm ready to burst out my fire already. I can't concertrate during Geography class even though I desperately want to so that I won't have to be constantly feeling sad plus anger when my dad babbles to me about how I should stop 'drawing', rubbing it in my face by saying that art is useless. (Swears *censored*) I can't believe ML has changed for the worst and now I officialy dislike and will no longer act as if she's ever been my friend.
Sad to know that a 'friend' I know is moving to Vietnam and I probably not gonna see him anytime soon. Guilty because I used to like his best friend, whom is giving me a very hard time. Confused of why I liked 'him' even though I know I'm not his type and knowing he'll graduate next year. Angry that my dad keeps messing up my brain by saying I should stop drawing for the sake of my studies, which I know I'll break apart!
Crazy because I'm constantly thinking too much that I know my brain is going to explode. Desperately wishing that I could just pass out and get sick for a few days. Tired because of all this shitty stress wrecking my brain cells and almost 'dead' because...
This sucks.
-Out-
Yz
Friday, April 10, 2009
To Nia Ma
Be grateful that I'm managed to post this up for you.
Dear Nia Ma (whatever your stupid name is),
I believe that you are a mindless coward because you don't dare to say that you hate me so much in front of my face. It proves to everyone that you are a chicken. I dared you twice and all you do is chicken out by saying "fuck you" through the net. Well, do you know what I think?
I specifically do not care if you hate me so much that your stomach wants to explode. I also do not give a damn if you have a completely sucky life or you're having some deranged mental problems! I just think you're just a person whose trying to get on my nerves. Well, forget it! Because trust me, it will do you no effin' good! You'll probably get some angry sparks from me.
SO WHAT? It's not like you've just become a queen or some famous celebrity. No, you're just a nobody. As a nobody, you surely have better things to do than harassing people who you hate for no effin' reason. I mean, I don't know who the hell are you! Here you come, randomly harassing me in my blog. If I did something wrong to you, admit it to my face! What's so hard about that?
But if you do see me as a threat, I'm very flattered. But that doesn't mean that you have to harass me online. You got a life? Good! Which means you certainly a LOT of better things to do that stalking people. Then, here's my advice.
Live your life properly!
And leave me. Alone.
Sincerely,
Yz.
Dear Nia Ma (whatever your stupid name is),
I believe that you are a mindless coward because you don't dare to say that you hate me so much in front of my face. It proves to everyone that you are a chicken. I dared you twice and all you do is chicken out by saying "fuck you" through the net. Well, do you know what I think?
I specifically do not care if you hate me so much that your stomach wants to explode. I also do not give a damn if you have a completely sucky life or you're having some deranged mental problems! I just think you're just a person whose trying to get on my nerves. Well, forget it! Because trust me, it will do you no effin' good! You'll probably get some angry sparks from me.
SO WHAT? It's not like you've just become a queen or some famous celebrity. No, you're just a nobody. As a nobody, you surely have better things to do than harassing people who you hate for no effin' reason. I mean, I don't know who the hell are you! Here you come, randomly harassing me in my blog. If I did something wrong to you, admit it to my face! What's so hard about that?
But if you do see me as a threat, I'm very flattered. But that doesn't mean that you have to harass me online. You got a life? Good! Which means you certainly a LOT of better things to do that stalking people. Then, here's my advice.
Live your life properly!
And leave me. Alone.
Sincerely,
Yz.
Guess Who?
If you see a guy at my school, that's him.
If you see a guy with a friendly face, that's him.
If you see a guy whose extremely nice, that's him.
If you see a guy who is considerably tall, that's him.
If you see a guy always around his friends, that's him.
If you see a guy listening to music after school, that's him.
If you see a guy whose called gay, that's him.
If you see a guy who acts gay but not really gay, that's him.
If you see a guy constantly being bullied, that's him.
If you see me with him, you'll think I'll like him.
And, it's true.
P.S: He's not Form 1, Form 2, Form 3, Form 4 nor Form 5. Probably not a Form 6 as well!
But it's certainly not that Changmin look-alike guy, Steven.
-XD-
Yz
If you see a guy with a friendly face, that's him.
If you see a guy whose extremely nice, that's him.
If you see a guy who is considerably tall, that's him.
If you see a guy always around his friends, that's him.
If you see a guy listening to music after school, that's him.
If you see a guy whose called gay, that's him.
If you see a guy who acts gay but not really gay, that's him.
If you see a guy constantly being bullied, that's him.
If you see me with him, you'll think I'll like him.
And, it's true.
P.S: He's not Form 1, Form 2, Form 3, Form 4 nor Form 5. Probably not a Form 6 as well!
But it's certainly not that Changmin look-alike guy, Steven.
-XD-
Yz
A bit Sentimental
Yes, I am feeling a wee bit sentimental now. I still remembered that time when I went to Kuantan several weeks ago. Boy, I sure missed the big salty waves of Teluk Chempaka (or was it Chempedak?). I really had a great time but I wished I could've spent it with my closest friends from school. Boy, that sure would be wonderful. =( But what I miss most of that wonderful journey was gazing at the stars at night.
Since it was around the countryside, there is less pollution in the air comparing to the cities. There were not many clouds anywhere so around nine o'clock; the sky was clear with a LOT of stars. It was really a lot, I swear. Honestly, I had always wished that I had seen stars but its a rare occasion to see them in BU. Even if there were stars, it'll be at least about five to six stars. The cluster of stars I saw at the Kuantan countryside were more than thirty.
No, I did not count but I estimated it was around that value. XD I felt like a little kid because I've always loved stars since I was five years old. I recalled the last time I gazed at stars was when I was still a little kid around six when my old house at Kuantan was near a beach. (Yes, I had a house near the beach! XD) I sat on this large log with my long evening gown grazing against the clean sand. (It was clean before). I loved watching the stars twinkle above me. I think there was more than seventy stars I saw in the sky.
Being a little kid at that time, I grinned childlishly. I sometimes really missed my young days as a kid. That makes it almost nine years since I last saw the stars! Wow.... I can't believe it was that long. However, it was a really lovely sight to see a big number of twinkling little stars in the sky. But too bad my camera could not capture that beautiful moment because the stars were too small to be captured. It's really awful that nobody notices them. Stars are like the most beautiful thing that you could see but hey, people are becoming more ignorant.
They don't care about the Earth anymore. The numbers of people who do care are beginning to get lesser and lesser. I stared at the stars for at least an hour and I hated the fact that my neck was terribly aching like hell. I wished I could've seen it longer but I was too sleepy that I fell asleep almost instantly. But it was worth it. I just wished that I could see stars like that from my window every night. What more better is sharing that sight with someone you love. =P
Shucks, I'm beginning to sound cheesy. XP Argh, silly me. I just want to lay on the thick dry grass and gaze at the stars. I sometimes can't believe I have this silliness in me. I should've name my blog "That Silly Girl" XP. Hehe, nah... That would make me feel even sillier. Oh, silly me!
-A little girl at heart-
Yz
Since it was around the countryside, there is less pollution in the air comparing to the cities. There were not many clouds anywhere so around nine o'clock; the sky was clear with a LOT of stars. It was really a lot, I swear. Honestly, I had always wished that I had seen stars but its a rare occasion to see them in BU. Even if there were stars, it'll be at least about five to six stars. The cluster of stars I saw at the Kuantan countryside were more than thirty.
No, I did not count but I estimated it was around that value. XD I felt like a little kid because I've always loved stars since I was five years old. I recalled the last time I gazed at stars was when I was still a little kid around six when my old house at Kuantan was near a beach. (Yes, I had a house near the beach! XD) I sat on this large log with my long evening gown grazing against the clean sand. (It was clean before). I loved watching the stars twinkle above me. I think there was more than seventy stars I saw in the sky.
Being a little kid at that time, I grinned childlishly. I sometimes really missed my young days as a kid. That makes it almost nine years since I last saw the stars! Wow.... I can't believe it was that long. However, it was a really lovely sight to see a big number of twinkling little stars in the sky. But too bad my camera could not capture that beautiful moment because the stars were too small to be captured. It's really awful that nobody notices them. Stars are like the most beautiful thing that you could see but hey, people are becoming more ignorant.
They don't care about the Earth anymore. The numbers of people who do care are beginning to get lesser and lesser. I stared at the stars for at least an hour and I hated the fact that my neck was terribly aching like hell. I wished I could've seen it longer but I was too sleepy that I fell asleep almost instantly. But it was worth it. I just wished that I could see stars like that from my window every night. What more better is sharing that sight with someone you love. =P
Shucks, I'm beginning to sound cheesy. XP Argh, silly me. I just want to lay on the thick dry grass and gaze at the stars. I sometimes can't believe I have this silliness in me. I should've name my blog "That Silly Girl" XP. Hehe, nah... That would make me feel even sillier. Oh, silly me!
-A little girl at heart-
Yz
Sunday, April 5, 2009
"Why Did I Fall in Love With You?"
The morning was almost perfect. The sun was glaring brightly, everyone were gathering on the muddy school field. Amanda sat on one of the red plastic chairs underneath the white tent sent nearby the tracks, where students were crowding around to witness the Tug-O-War. Childrens were cheering when Red House won against Yellow House.
The results rolled out. Red House won first place with 176 points with Yellow House and Blue points 168 and 167 points respectively. The competition was almost intense but nevertheless, everyone had a spectacular time. Amanda got up, hugged her friends before rain drizzled into the soil. She was about to leave but when she reached the gate, her tracks stopped.
A feathery feeling developed inside her chest and her mind felt cramped inside a box. He had to be here. She felt memories of last year fresh inside her head. She remembered when she last came to Sports Day, she missed out the chance to talk to him. She didn't want to regret for not saying goodbye to him, especially when he was about to move to Vietnam soon.
She rushed back. When she stood near the canteen, her eyes caught a glimpse of black hair and a very familiar face. Her mouth went dry and her face was erupted with colors. It's him. There he was, helping his family with the tent, pulling everything down one-by-one. She felt thrilled and scared at that very moment. Thrilled that she was able to see him again and scared that she'll broke into tears later.
She sat on the bench... and prayed. Minute after minute passed by, achingly pinching the cockles of her heart. Her fingers twiddled with the hairband inside her pale hands. Her eyes were focused on him and him alone. She hardly noticed the boy flirting next to her, trying to catch her attention. She prayed and prayed, hoping being able to see his face.
But no. When the last bag was packed, he brought it into the car. She got up and stood next to a pillar, her eyes glued to the silver car that was enough to fit at least 8 people. At one point, they both made eye-contact. Her heart fluttered with joy when he looked back at her.
But sadly.
It merely lasted for three seconds.
Then, he turned when his stern mother called him. He gulped and got into the car with his little brother following behind him. She wanted to rush over to him and embrace him tightly. She wanted to hold his hand and look into his eyes. She wanted to run up to him and kiss him. But no, she couldn't. If only she had that once chance to talk to him, she would be delighted until the day she died.
But no. His little brother shut the door and the engine roared. Her heart ached with the usual feeling of a thousand needles mercilessly poking it. When his family drove off, she felt broken. She felt a voodoo doll, standing there so still that she felt as if a stranger can lift her up and place her in front of the shop for display. She turned her heel and walked slowly.
Then, her heart crushed as if smashed by a hard big hammer. She broke apart. She ran, crying her eyes out and hanging onto the walls for support. She ran up to the place where she always adored him sitting at. It was his favorite place. She sat on his favorite spot, flinging her ballet flats away and hugged her legs. She sobbed loudly in her knees, regretting almost about everything.
Regretting that she was ignorant to notice him throughout the whole day.
Regretting for not being able to smile or talk to him.
Regretting that she should've said I love you instead of slapping him.
Regretting that she could've talked to him for hours!
Regretting that she wasn't able to see him again for God-knows-how long.
Regretting that he was her first love.
Regretting that she couldn't say goodbye.
Regretting that she might regret this for her whole life.
- The End -
P.S: Based on a true-life event. So please don't bother asking me who experienced it.
The results rolled out. Red House won first place with 176 points with Yellow House and Blue points 168 and 167 points respectively. The competition was almost intense but nevertheless, everyone had a spectacular time. Amanda got up, hugged her friends before rain drizzled into the soil. She was about to leave but when she reached the gate, her tracks stopped.
A feathery feeling developed inside her chest and her mind felt cramped inside a box. He had to be here. She felt memories of last year fresh inside her head. She remembered when she last came to Sports Day, she missed out the chance to talk to him. She didn't want to regret for not saying goodbye to him, especially when he was about to move to Vietnam soon.
She rushed back. When she stood near the canteen, her eyes caught a glimpse of black hair and a very familiar face. Her mouth went dry and her face was erupted with colors. It's him. There he was, helping his family with the tent, pulling everything down one-by-one. She felt thrilled and scared at that very moment. Thrilled that she was able to see him again and scared that she'll broke into tears later.
She sat on the bench... and prayed. Minute after minute passed by, achingly pinching the cockles of her heart. Her fingers twiddled with the hairband inside her pale hands. Her eyes were focused on him and him alone. She hardly noticed the boy flirting next to her, trying to catch her attention. She prayed and prayed, hoping being able to see his face.
But no. When the last bag was packed, he brought it into the car. She got up and stood next to a pillar, her eyes glued to the silver car that was enough to fit at least 8 people. At one point, they both made eye-contact. Her heart fluttered with joy when he looked back at her.
But sadly.
It merely lasted for three seconds.
Then, he turned when his stern mother called him. He gulped and got into the car with his little brother following behind him. She wanted to rush over to him and embrace him tightly. She wanted to hold his hand and look into his eyes. She wanted to run up to him and kiss him. But no, she couldn't. If only she had that once chance to talk to him, she would be delighted until the day she died.
But no. His little brother shut the door and the engine roared. Her heart ached with the usual feeling of a thousand needles mercilessly poking it. When his family drove off, she felt broken. She felt a voodoo doll, standing there so still that she felt as if a stranger can lift her up and place her in front of the shop for display. She turned her heel and walked slowly.
Then, her heart crushed as if smashed by a hard big hammer. She broke apart. She ran, crying her eyes out and hanging onto the walls for support. She ran up to the place where she always adored him sitting at. It was his favorite place. She sat on his favorite spot, flinging her ballet flats away and hugged her legs. She sobbed loudly in her knees, regretting almost about everything.
Regretting that she was ignorant to notice him throughout the whole day.
Regretting for not being able to smile or talk to him.
Regretting that she should've said I love you instead of slapping him.
Regretting that she could've talked to him for hours!
Regretting that she wasn't able to see him again for God-knows-how long.
Regretting that he was her first love.
Regretting that she couldn't say goodbye.
Regretting that she might regret this for her whole life.
- The End -
P.S: Based on a true-life event. So please don't bother asking me who experienced it.
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